it, again
I had one of those days again.
It fills me up, but I am empty
I am bursting with it, but I am deflated
It squeezes me tight, but I am limp
It tosses me up and down, but I am immobile
It burns me up, but I am cold
I am screaming, but I am silent
My mind is racing, but my thoughts are frozen
It hurts me, but I am numb
I am only laying here, but it is the hardest thing to do
I am running away, but I'm not getting anywhere
I hear the clock tick, but time is meaningless
It won't leave me alone, but I am alone
It is a fleeting moment, but it takes forever
It changes everything, but it is the same
6 comments:
I am sorry to hear that you had another one of those days. I hope things are going a little better now.
By the way, I tried posting a few days ago and Blogger wouldn't hear of it. I have been wanting to say that you didn't remind me of hymns and make me feel bad. Ironically enough, I had been doing that on my own starting a few days before this. Your blog and your comments have never done anything but help me. So, thank you!
Things are going better now, thanks, Lemon. Sometimes I'm down, and I get back up, but I'm thinking, how many times do I have to get down so low before I admit I need help?
Wow. This hits home right now. I thought I was over my feelings for the most part, but the missionaries just stopped by and I'm flooded with feelings again. This takes time.
Yep, time, and more time. And some ups and downs.
Why were the mishies there? Random tracting? Or were they sent?
I'm not sure why the mishies came by. Our branch has left us alone since we told them we were taking a break. The new mishies probably saw our name on a list and decided to come by. We didn't let them in.
Good for you, meg. Luckily, we've never had mishies stop by. HTers, yes. But mostly they've all just left us alone.
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